BEFORE I LEAVE

~BEFORE I LEAVE~

If I wake before I sleep

And die before I wake,

Know that I loved you.

And that I will always do-

Even in my bed of maggots,

With a rotten heart I shall love you more.

If I wave before I say goodbye

With hanging tears that wish never to fall.

If I ever leave without saying I love you,

That I am sorry for all the pains caused you.

That I never wished to hurt you

Not even unintentionally,

Just know that I shall still love you

With my rotten heart.

Even after that vacancy I created in your heart

Is reoccupied and there be no room

For thoughts of me to reside.

For my place is taken by another,

That the little thoughts of me begins

To leach and escape you,

For the powers of a new love begins to fill it

And I cannot help it seeing you,

From the land of the invisible.

I shall be a man enough.

Even when I have lost my residence in your heart,

I shall love you more than I ever did

And my jealous rotten heart

I shall pluck off the chest of my poor soul-

Not out of jealousy but out of my undying love for you

And my back I shall turn on you

With much pain just as when the soul

Evacuated my body-

But not due to jealousy but because

For all I ever wished you was happiness.

So my heart I shall place in my palm

And watch it closely as it beats for you

Out of my jealous soul.

For I cannot sit to watch the torments my poor jealous

Soul shall inflict on this dear heart,

For still beating heavily for you.

For love and jealousy must not reside in one room. 

---Fampah Coyish---

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2015