AS YOUR CHOICE

~AS YOUR CHOICE~

You pierced me with your lies and watched

The love for you out of me waste away

You broke me with your words and exposed

The bones that framed me

To harsh emotional weathers

But there could have been another way-

So I say no way!

I can’t just let you slip away

For looking at the road we have walked,

 We have come a long way

So let’s get things straight

And settle our differences right away

Before the little love left

For you in me drains away.

I still have some time as long as

My heart is heavily beating

And as I’m strongly breathing

I want to hear you to me

Willing saying;

I have stopped the beating

I am done with the cheating

No more the abusive saying

And even when I’m away

And it’s cold and I find myself shivering

In your arms my cold body you will

 Find comfortably lying and warming-

And for your information,

I’m not desperate

So you can choose not to cooperate!

But remember you said;

Love is a responsibility that needs to be endured

So however terrible I am,

Or however unbearable I have become

It’s me you loved

And so, me you chose

So me you have to continue loving

And not some random people.

---Fampah Coyish---

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2014

I APOLOGIZE

~I APOLOGIZE~

I’m sorry for all things I’ve done,

For all tears I have caused you;

I’m sorry

And this time I mean it

I mean them–all my words.

I’m sorry I’ve been a constant

Pain in the ass and a disappointment to you.

I’m sorry my lips had always been in your way;

All the bad and evil thoughts and disbelieve

All the curses I cursed you

The evil things I did in pursuit of pleasure,

I’m sorry that I always wanted to find happiness in myself

That when I had to dig in you

I dug in-between my thighs for satisfaction.

I’m a cheat, and you don’t deserve a pinch of me

For I’m too tasteless 

 For as a salt I have lost my taste and my flavour

Upon all those favours.

I’m useless, you don’t deserve me;

I’m not too good for you

I don’t deserve this hug.

I’m sorry-I mean it!

See how tears are raining

Before my eyes

Because I’m not happy cause

I can’t forgive myself

Even while enjoying the comfort of your arms

My mark of sin still embedded deep

Beneath the tissues of my skins.

My neck is breaking

My burdens of sins too heavy

I’m sorry Lord Jesus, I apologize

Forgive me and make me pure once more.

---Fampah Coyish---

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2014

TELL FATHER

~TELL FATHER~

Of all the things I’ve done tell Father

I don’t deserve to be called his child

Till He feels I’m worth it to be called so.

O brother, please tell Father to forgive me

I know he would when it come from you

That is why I’m begging of you to please help me

Your younger brother to tell Father

To make me happy in his house again

Please elder brother, tell Father that I regret

All my wrongs and tell him that he should forgive me

Tell Father all that I have done

Most importantly the bads,

The cruels and grievous

O brother, please tell Father

The way I treated her poorly after

All the love I claimed on her

Please brother, do me that one favour,

 I know it’s hard but please

Just for the sake of your younger brother

Tell father I made her abort that baby

And then told Estella I loved her instead

And that I watched her

Cry always with no pity

Brother Jesus, please tell Father

 That He may forgive me

And help me undo myself the devil

I have become.

---Fampah Coyish---

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2014

TELL ME TODAY

~TELL ME TODAY~ 

You call me a side chick

A standby chip 

When in my soul I have vowed 

Your side not to leave even  

In your grave pit 

You treat me like dirt 

In me you find no reasons to respect 

But in your lonely nights 

Deep within me you come to find rest.

Tell me for today, 

What do you take me for? 

You call me a side boo 
To me you see as a book 

A dictionary that is visited in times of need 

A back up sim and 

When in the heart of my hearts 

I have sworn never to serve you bad treatments.

You look down on me with disdain 

Because of my pure love for you, 

 You see me insane 

So in me for seasons you have 

 Found no reasons to respect 

But in your lonely nights 

Me like a new sim card you inset 

Tell me for today, 

What do you take me for? 

---Fampah Coyish--- 

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2014

SOMETHING TO STILL BOAST OF

~SOMETHING TO STILL BOAST OF~

I cried that day, I cried

As my story the skies told

That you my Bella left hold

Then as I cried

I prayed that you I meet once more

Whenever in my dreams I dreamed

To say my listed regrets

So I tell it to DHL

To bring to you in my dreams

And to my apologies accept

When you receive

For hard times would have definitely come

So with tears each day

I pack all the thoughts

Of you in the big white wardrobe

Inside my small skull with great joy

Not being Forgetful

 Of the silly ones that made us fought

Hoping that if for your thoughts

 I’m been heavily laden

I still have something to boast of

For when you left, you took all

I had away including my very self.

---Fampah Coyish---

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2014

HELP ME

~HELP ME~

Help me write in this prison

Help me reason as I

Write this letter of treason

Oh! Please give me reasons

To best make this decision-

As I sit in this prison

I call self.

Help me season my reasons

To write this letter of treason

Before I am been caught and imprisoned

And cast out of this body prison

I call self.

For the reasons I have stocked

On several seasons

As I have grown to know that;

Self-liberation is an ingredient

That seasons the soul

So help me get liberated from this prison

Called self.

Help me commit this very cheap act

Called treason

So give me reasons that

Agrees with my decisions-

No, please, don’t stop me

For I need to get out of this prison.

---Fampah Coyish---

© By Fampah Coyish-Awoken By Poems 2014